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I've been seduced
Apr. 30th, 2005 12:06 pmUm, okay, I just want my Canon AE1 to know I still love it and I don't want to end that relationship. It's valuable to me and it's been my mainstay for many years. I hope we can work things out, but...
There's a new toy in my life.
Maybe it's a temporary thing, maybe it's pure lust and will burn itself out quickly, and maybe I'm risking something precious by fooling around like this, but I haven't felt such excitement in a long time.
Okay, maybe I'm just caving to peer pressure here. My friends were messing around on the side, had been for a long time, but I steadfastly maintained my virtue. I was a manual kind of girl. I just couldn't see myself stepping out on one who had stood by me over many photo shoots, several continents, the one I could always rely on. But I just didn't understand the lure of Something New. And to pay for it. God, how could I have used the grocery money that way? Now my children will starve just for my cheap moment of gratification!
Wait. I don't have any children.
And I put it on a credit card. That's not real money, right? So I guess that's okay. Like any addiction, I just want to do it again and again. I've been locked in my apartment since last night doing it over and over. Maybe later today, I'll actually leave the house to take pictures.
Nikon Coolpix 5900, be kind. I'm new to this infidelity thing.
There's a new toy in my life.
Maybe it's a temporary thing, maybe it's pure lust and will burn itself out quickly, and maybe I'm risking something precious by fooling around like this, but I haven't felt such excitement in a long time.
Okay, maybe I'm just caving to peer pressure here. My friends were messing around on the side, had been for a long time, but I steadfastly maintained my virtue. I was a manual kind of girl. I just couldn't see myself stepping out on one who had stood by me over many photo shoots, several continents, the one I could always rely on. But I just didn't understand the lure of Something New. And to pay for it. God, how could I have used the grocery money that way? Now my children will starve just for my cheap moment of gratification!
Wait. I don't have any children.
And I put it on a credit card. That's not real money, right? So I guess that's okay. Like any addiction, I just want to do it again and again. I've been locked in my apartment since last night doing it over and over. Maybe later today, I'll actually leave the house to take pictures.
Nikon Coolpix 5900, be kind. I'm new to this infidelity thing.