Luck, please
Jul. 1st, 2005 11:09 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pjthompsonNerve-wracking event of the day: Well, okay, of the month. Of the last couple of months.
I'm leaving work early today so I can go with my mom to a doctor's appointment. We'll be discussing her surgery to have a shunt put in one of the arteries of one of her kidneys. This is a fairly routine procedure, so much so that they usually send folks home the same day. But my mom's health has been a bit precarious so they're going to keep her overnight and the surgery's been on again/off again as they try to get her blood pressure and other chem levels down. It's gotten to the point that they have to do the surgery even though the bp is still high because one of the reasons the bp is high is because her kidney is not functioning properly. So, maybe today we'll have a more definitive answer as to when the surgery will happen. If not, I may dissolve into a puddle of totally neurotic stress gelatin.
I think one of the reasons I've been focusing so hard on things lately is by way of distracting myself from thinking about the hard stuff. It's easier to get caught up in the minor distractions of day-to-day and to bury myself in work and to do a spiritual version of sticking my fingers in my ears and singing loudly, "La la la la la! I can't hear you! La la la la la!"
Unfortunately, the refrain of the hard stuff never quite goes away. It's an insistent base line thrumming beneath the surface of things. It makes for a very neurotic existence.
Wish me luck. Better yet, wish my mom (Donna) luck.
I'm leaving work early today so I can go with my mom to a doctor's appointment. We'll be discussing her surgery to have a shunt put in one of the arteries of one of her kidneys. This is a fairly routine procedure, so much so that they usually send folks home the same day. But my mom's health has been a bit precarious so they're going to keep her overnight and the surgery's been on again/off again as they try to get her blood pressure and other chem levels down. It's gotten to the point that they have to do the surgery even though the bp is still high because one of the reasons the bp is high is because her kidney is not functioning properly. So, maybe today we'll have a more definitive answer as to when the surgery will happen. If not, I may dissolve into a puddle of totally neurotic stress gelatin.
I think one of the reasons I've been focusing so hard on things lately is by way of distracting myself from thinking about the hard stuff. It's easier to get caught up in the minor distractions of day-to-day and to bury myself in work and to do a spiritual version of sticking my fingers in my ears and singing loudly, "La la la la la! I can't hear you! La la la la la!"
Unfortunately, the refrain of the hard stuff never quite goes away. It's an insistent base line thrumming beneath the surface of things. It makes for a very neurotic existence.
Wish me luck. Better yet, wish my mom (Donna) luck.
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