I've been in a bit of a null and void zone this week. Last week I packed up my office of seven and a half years and this week I've been unpacking and adjusting to a brand new office. Nice office—but it's weird to be doing the same work in a new space. But it looks like I'll be able to find space to do my writing during lunch over here. That was a big worry. For years, I've skulked off to vacant offices and had a precious hour each day in the middle of the day when I could write.
I've been in a bit of a null and void zone where my writing is concerned, too. I've finished the big revision push of the summer for my novel,
Shivery Bones, but I sure as heck don't feel like starting a new novel right now, though I've got several ideas swimming around in the imagination pool. We'll have to wait and see which one breaks the surface first.
In the meantime I've been revising a story, a short novelette, I wrote about two and a half years ago: "Eudora's Song." Near the time I wrote it, I posted it to the
Online Writing Workshop and got some positive feedback, plus an Editor's Choice runner up. Back in the day, they did reviews of the runner up stories on OWW so I also got one of those. Oww! Well, okay, Kelly Link said some nice things about the story—about the language and the concept, the MC. But she also said there were some other serious problems with the construction of the story, the pace, the non-build to the climax and the limpness of said climax. One or two of the OWW reviewers hinted at the same thing so I knew I'd have to do some more work on the story, but it's never easy to hear those things. I made a pass at revision back then, but I just didn't have enough perspective to do the job needed. I was too close to it, too wedded to the story as written, even though I knew it was flawed. I trunked the sucker, thinking I'd get back to it in six months or so.
That was an incredibly productive time for me so I didn't get back to it that year, and by the next year I was launched on writing The Novel, so I didn't get back to it last year, either. I finally pulled Eudora out of the trunk back in May or June and at first I was quite encouraged. The mood, the tone, the writing that people liked was still there, still drew me in (even though I could see a lot of fat that needed cutting) and I was really gratified by that. Then I hit the point in the manuscript where the climax was supposed to happen. Oy. It was so blatantly clear to me just how much the story fell apart there. I saw everything everyone had said about it so clearly. For maybe the first time. I had tacitly agreed before that the flaws were there, but now I could see them,
feel them, myself.
I put the story away. It contained elements of beauty, but it just didn't work and I didn't know how to fix it. I wasn't crazy about the suggestions some of the reviewers had made. I just didn't know if that story would ever work.
Apparently, my subconscious, right brain, whatever you call it, had other ideas. Apparently, the dark morass of the hind part of my brain had been working on it while I was preoccupied elsewhere. I just had a feeling this week that I needed to pull it out of the trunk, and when I did I knew what to do. And coming off four months of very intense cutting of saggy, baggy, flatulent language in my novel, I had my knife at the ready to cut, slice, and dice what needed ridding of. There's such a sense of virtuous accomplishment when you can finally
see and when you can finally do something about it.
I'm not saying the story will be perfect when I'm done. It may still be flawed. And the sense of virtue and accomplishment will pass, it always does. But every once in a while it's nice to wallow in a sense of progress and of doing what needs to be done. Too often I wallow in the other side of the morass.