Musings

Oct. 30th, 2019 01:51 pm
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In 1901, two English ladies—Miss Moberly and Miss Jourdain—experienced a timeslip while visiting Versailles, going back for an interlude to the time of Marie Antoinette. They detailed this story in a book called An Adventure. You can read about it here: xenophon.org.uk/adventure.html

If you click on the link, then click on "The Music of An Adventure" you can hear a transcription one of the ladies, Ms. Jourdain, a talented musician, made of a strain of music she heard while "there." Not surprisingly, they received much ridicule from the male establishment of the time, but they clung to their accounts for the rest of their lives. There are inconsistencies in their stories, but other things they reported would have taken a great deal of research on their part to get right. So the account remains controversial even today.

Still, it's a cranking great yarn. And I say, all cranking great yarns should be true, even if they aren't.
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The Getty Fire was still quite a ways from me but it got perilously close to the LA Basin. The LA Basin isn't more important than the other areas that have burned but it's densely packed. If the fires get into the Basin I don't know how they'll stop them. It's something to worry about every time fire gets close to the really crowded areas. Fire departments are stretched so thin right now. They heroically got on top of the Getty fire this time, but we’re still burning, homes are still being lost.

California is a trend leader in many ways. But I would rather not be on the front lines of the devastation caused by global warming. Californians are sharing that with our brethren in hurricane, tornado, and typhoon country. But make no mistake: global warming is coming for us all.
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I changed my alarm sound from the annoying ding ding ding ding ding ding a-ding to the sound of a hooting owl echoing in a forest. It's eerie and wondrous when it drops into the silence of my room.
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Someone was talking about animism the other day and it made me think of Ayahuasca, the visionary drug processed by the Quechua people of the Amazon. It's an arduous process to bring forth the drug, involving many steps, and not at all intuitive. When a Westerner asked the shaman how his people learned to process it he said, "The spirit of the plant told us."
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Trust the road
no matter where it
takes you, how many
forks and crossroads.
Wherever it leads,
in any direction,
is the path you must follow.
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Looks like the giant Tick fire was started by a guy who was living in junkyard like conditions and decided to cook his lunch outside on the barbecue. In Santana wind conditions. Florida had nothing to do with it.
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I finished the old compilation novel (Beneath a Hollow Moon) and put it in a trunk where it will get moldy or will come back out again and I can make it new. I've started another novel, one I'd written a couple of chapters on a long time ago. In fact, chapter one was the last Editor's Choice I received from the Online Writing Workshop for SFF (OWW) before I left it. Carmina. It's been doing a siren call to me for the last couple of months, and so far the writing's been going well. Except for those two previously written chapters it's completely new writing and that feels really good. Also, a completely different universe from the previous novel, and that also feels good. And the best part? I know the end but have no idea how I’ll get there! I'm stumbling around, but I feel like I've finally come home again.

I'll forever be grateful for the things I learned from OWW, the community I was a part of, and the encouragement I received there. Invaluable.
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It’s a process of letting go:
of youth,
resentments,
of those we love,
of seasons of
grief and joy.
Let them go, let them fly.
Let them find new homes,
or sink away into the earth,
away from my fading heart,
my lightening soul.
Away, now!
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1. It is difficult to make a five things list when you’re not in the mood to talk about stuff. I am not sure if I’ll be around much, other than the odd quote of the day. Then again, I may be chattering like a chimp. Hard to predict.

2. I’ve decided I’m down with smearing egoboo all over myself in public. I got one of the best pro reviews of my writing I’ve ever had. Helpful and a boost when I needed it. Thank you, OWW and John Klima. Now I guess I need to finish that novel.

3. My copy of Bioshock remains virgo intacta though it arrived weeks ago. I must figure out how to arrange for time and energy to play it.

4. I got the greatest idea for making handmade Christmas cards. I wish I’d gotten the idea back in July. Maybe next year.

5. Here’s something from Daydream Believer by the Monkees that sums things up nicely:

Cheer up sleepy Pjthompson
oh what can it mean.

Which song was this lyric from?

Get your own lyrics:

Mirrored from Better Than Dead.

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My latest story, “The Comfort of Stone” has been posted to the Online Writing Workshop. It’s the first new story I’ve written in awhile so I’m afraid I may be rusty…

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Or maybe not, but the Meyers-Briggs personality test has been around a loooooong time. It used to be administered only by therapists and other mental health professionals of a Jungian bent (as it's based on Carl Jung's philosophy), but it's all over the place now. It's become just another meme—or perhaps the granddaddy of all memes.

I've taken it three times in my life, with several years between each takeage, because a therapist friend of mine once told me that it can sometimes shift as the years go by. It hasn't much for me. The first time, when I was pretty young, I was almost evenly split between Extrovert and Introvert, but it looks like I've gotten more introverted as time has gone by. I guess that's kind of natural. Being young is all about "social networking," even if one sucks at it, as I mostly have. One thing that was no surprise to me was that INFJ's are about 1% of the population. I'd known for some time that I wasn't like most of the people I knew. I didn't find it isolating so much as I found it liberating.

We did an amusing experiment back on the OWW mailing list some years back: everybody took the Meyers-Briggs to see what results came back. I seem to recall that most people came back as INFJ or INTJ. I guess they aren't lying when they say that one of the frequent professions for INFJ is that of writer.

This is one of those sites that requires you to register. "It's free!" Click on the graphic if you want to take the test.

Click to view my Personality Profile page

INFJ - The "Confidant" Jungian Personality Types
INFJs, making up an estimated 1% of all people, are the most rare type (males even more so). They are introspective, caring, sensitive, gentle and complex people that strive for peace and derive satisfaction from helping others. INFJs are highly intuitive, empathetic and dedicated listeners. These traits tend to act as a "tell me what's wrong" sign on their forehead, hence the nicknames Confidant, Counselor or Empath. INFJs are intensely private and deeply committed to their beliefs.

(I had the "tell me what's wrong" sign removed from my forehead. When I was younger I thought it my duty to listen to every tale of woe, but I reached such a point of saturation that it threatened my own sanity. I like to think I'm still a sympathetic listener, but I'm a bit more selective who I listen to these days. Self-protection is not a sin.)
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Chapter one of my alternative—very alternative—pirate story, The Heart of the Western Tide, has been posted to the Online Writing Workshop.

It's a very strange little story, with a stranger voice, and I'm not sure if it's a novella or a novel at this point. But it was enormous fun to write what I've written so far.

I have yet to figure out if the amount of fun I have writing something is in inverse ratio to the quality of the project, but I'm sure some critters will let me know...
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No, I'm not talking about the current state of my belly, although I am actually off work today with belly troubles.

I'm actually referring to the middle portion of my WIP. Some serious carnage is in its future, but for now I'm pushing onwards. I've been down this road enough to know that I won't know what to slash and burn until I've got a completed draft on my hands. I've reworked a lot of this from the 90k unfinished draft I had, but I still haven't written that final 25k or so that makes the crucial difference. You know, the actual climax. Once that's in the can, I'll have a better sense of The Real and Truly What of my novel.

I realize this isn't particularly efficient or something I would recommend to anyone else, but it is what it is.

I just posted chapter 13 to the workshop yesterday and was horrified to see that it was over the 7500 word limit. I could break it into two chunks which would make it more palatable to critters, but that would require deleting one of the other chapters I've got posted (there's a three post limit). I'm hoping for at least one more crit on the other chapters (11 and 12) already there, so I'm just going to let it ride. It's difficult to acquire new critters when you get to the saggy middle point of a novel, anyway. I've been through that enough times to not be overly concerned about it. It is what it is, too. Not every novel finds its audience on the workshop. Or, as one disgruntled critter noted, "Good luck with editing this."

I'm actually much better at editing drafts then generating first drafts. Sometimes my books go through amazing transformations in the editing process. Sometimes not. Such is life.

Perhaps I'll go back to cold querying the novels I already have finished and polished while I stumble forward with this one. I haven't done that in awhile due to various life circumstances and brain circumstances. I think it's time to get off my duff.

The current status:




The stage of the unfinished draft:

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I've posted chapter one of Venus In Transit to the OWW. I think it's encouraging that I actually got excited when I reread this chapter. Taking a vacation from this novel is the best thing I could have done. It's given me a lovely fresh perspective.

And thanks, Kevin. :-)
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So, the funky voice problems continue in the first part of chapter 14 of Angels. I'm wondering now if it's just funky voice or if my problem may also involve a funky frame to hang this part of the plot on? I also suspect there may be at least one superfluous character. (Loreo, for those of you reading along at home.) Mostly he just sits around nodding sagely, listening to people talk, issuing the occasional command. I could probably cut him, but then I'd have to shift the job description of someone else around to fill the void, and...

The problem there is that he'll be much more relevant in books two and three of the trilogy.

Aye me. I'm at that stage of pre-submission suppressed panic and nothing seems right. I can't tell if it's because it really isn't right or because I'm looking for an excuse not to send it out. I'll push on with the rewrite and see how I feel about a restructure when I reach the end. I really like the first eleven chapters, anyway, and the ending kicks butt, if I do say so myself.

It has seemed for some time now that the voice I use in Angels doesn't really feel like my own. In parts it does, but in other places it's like I'm borrowing someone else's voice. I ran this by my friend who I've known since I was twelve, who's read...let's see...most of what I've written. "Rereading Shivery Bones has really pointed out how different the voice is between that, Angels, and Venus," I told her. "I think Bones and Venus are more representative of my true voice."

"And I think," she said, "that Bones is more representative of the voice of a younger you. Venus is more representative of who you are now."

She is brilliant and she is correct. That's the dissonance I'm feeling. Angels is pulling between the old and the new and that works fine in places. Others, not so much. I don't quite know what to do with that since I was hoping to start marketing Angels. I was going to push through and start marketing anyway, and I probably will do that, because I just can't trust my objectivity here, but this dreaded middle makes me wonder.

It also occurred to me that I didn't "dream" that book as much as I did the others—and that kind of creative daydreaming, for me anyway, seems to be intimately connected with voice. The voice is a direct result of being intensely inside the idea for awhile before it starts coming out of me.

On a positive note, I've begun posting things to the Online Writing Workshop again. The first three chapters of Shivery Bones because I've thought of a couple of more places to try that book and I wanted to be sure the new prologue/chapter beginning worked with the rest of the opening. I was so burned out from crits when I gave up posting to OWW (going on two years ago) that I wasn't sure if I'd ever post again. But I've enjoyed being back, doing crits. I might even post the opening to Venus In Transit to see if I can poke myself into finishing up there.

But first, the rest of the Angels rewrite. For better or worse.

A Rain of Angels

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Here's your chance to experience it first hand, free of charge—with the potential of winning a free membership and free stuff. The powers that be and the generous Joshua Palmatier are sponsoring a critique contest. The rules and prize lists are posted below:


Commendable Crit Contest:

1. Eligibility: To enter the contest, the entrant must join the
Science Fiction and Fantasy Online Writing Workshop for the FREE
trial month sometime during the month of February OR they can already
be a member of the workshop. There is no obligation to remain part
of the workshop after the free trial month for those that join for
the purposes of entering the contest. Details about the workshop can
be found at the workshop's homepage at sff.onlinewritingwo rkshop.com.

The rest of the rules. )
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Those of you involved with the Online Writing Workshop may remember Gary, or Dr. Seven as he was known on the list. His health has been tricky for the last few years, and his son, Christopher, has written to the list to say that he passed from a heart attack on Sunday.

Gary and I corresponded offlist now and then, especially during the time he left OWW because his health had taken a scary turn. He tried so hard to become a better writer, but he was always a good man, and a loyal friend.

I'm sure he's filling the heavens with light at the moment, living out some of those wonderful visions he tried so hard to create for the rest of us.

Blessings to him and his family.
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But I'm not Bitter! (Much.)

I finished up chapter 21 and started polishing chapter 19 to post to the OWW. That will be the last chapter I put up on the workshop. I wanted to leave those who've been critting, and those who have been following but unable to crit, with some sense of closure, if not the end of the story. Nineteen culminates one part of the story that at least some people have been wanting for awhile now.

So now I just have to push on through to the end.

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This 100k number is pretty much a fiction. Ain't no way I'll wrap this up in 8k, but I am closing in on the ending, and I want to see how far over 100k I go.

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120k is looking pretty reasonable. There just aren't that many tangents left to get lost in. ;-) Miracles may happen and I may even bring it in under that, and certainly when I do the rewrites there will be enough to cut, I think, to bring it back to 100k. But I'm thinking this first draft will probably go at least this long. We shall see.
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The evil Chapter 20 is finished, though I pulled many teeth out to get it done. I'm thinking of pulling Charged with Folly off of OWW after chapter 19 (whenever I post that--gotta write chapter 21 first). I have a diminishing amount of time to do crits—which doesn't exactly encourage people to crit me. If I do that I'll continue to crank out chapters (I'm projecting about 30), I just will be doing it without any instant feedback. Scary. But probably the next phase. Or not. Dunno.

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Blargh! I've spent the day revising, although I tried really hard to work around the problem I'd created for myself in Charged with Folly. The first part of chapter 8 went really well, but I got stuck because of some characters I failed to introduce earlier in the story. So I went back and wrote them in: four in all.

OWW readers: If you want to catch up on the new material in chapter 5, I've updated the post and bracketed the new material (in 3 places) with [NEW] and [END NEW]. There's also a link posted in the author's notes which takes you to some new material for chapter 3 which introduces a fourth new character. They don't materially change chapter 5--just made it an even longer travelogue--but all of these folks will be coming into play later on, in one way or another.

Blarghity blargh! First drafts are so much fun.

Other than revising, I've been working around the house the last two days. I've finally gotten my energy back and I thought I should accomplish something before going back to work on Tuesday. ::sigh::
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Writingness of the day:

I hit 100 pages, 25k on Charged with Folly yesterday. Doesn't seem nearly as much as I'd wanted to have done in two months, but it's what I've got. It's been difficult getting writing done the last couple of weeks—lots of interruptions of my regular time slot—but I still managed to squeeze in another chapter. Which means I'll probably be posting it on OWW in the next couple of days. As to picking up the pace on the writing, I'd like to think it will happen, but it probably won't, especially this time of year. Presents or no presents, the holidays eat up a lot of time.

I was also complaining to a friend that I'm not in love with this novel like I've been in love in the past. I'm liking it, liking how the story is developing, I'm committed to writing it, but I'm not enamored of it. I never got that honeymoon feeling that I always have at the beginning of a novel (until reality sets in and I begin to see it sucks about as much as anything else). This one has been more of a slugfest. Maybe that's a good thing. It'll cut down on the unrealistic expectations and make this more of a "working writer" experience.

My friend asked me if I thought I'd reach a point where that feeling of struggle might ease up—and, actually, I do. Right now I'm trying to balance the adventure/action parts of the story with the worldbuilding parts, and struggling not to do the infodump thing, and that's never fun. I mean, the imaginative parts are, letting myself cut loose. But getting it all to balance and flow, that's work. I do believe that fairly soon I'll be hitting parts of the story where I'm not having to do that kind of balancing act because I've established the world enough that I can just let the characters interact and do their damnedest. It might get more fun then.

In the meantime, I soldier on.


Random quotes of the day:

"There should be a science of discontent. People need hard times and oppression to develop psychic muscles."

—Frank Herbert, Dune


"[The asylum] was a lovely setting, unindicative of the mental anguish and dysfunction it sheltered—much like many individuals one meets in the course of a day."

—Jeffrey Ford, The Portrait of Mrs. Charbuque


Disclaimer for the Quote of the Day:

These quotes do not necessarily reflect the views of the poster, The Universe or its subsidiaries, Leonard Maltin, Siegfried and Roy, or the Mormon Tabernacle Choir. However, they frequently reflect the views of the Cottingsley Fairies.
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Man oh man, it's been the busy at work, but I did manage to finish up that pesky chapter five and post it to the workshop. I'm less than blissed about it, but at least I'm not as unhappy as I was a couple of weeks back. It didn't want to get written in a nice, neat sequential way. It wanted to jump all over the place, throws lots of interesting ideas at the walls—ooh pretty colors!—and see which ones stuck. It's chock full of stuff, although I did manage to cut some of it and smooth some of it, but . . . meh. It's kind of ugly.

First draft, Pam.

Oh, right.

On to chapter six. If I can just figure out what happens next.


Random quote of the day:

"Sometimes we measure the quality of life's passage by just how much of an assortment of mindless pastimes we develop to entertain ourselves through it."

—Peter David, The Woad to Wuin
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Writing: I dreamed Friday night that I was having a conversation with another writer and talking about how in my first drafts I have the bad habit of beginning sentences with "And." I way overuse it, and it's one of those things I'm constantly hacking out of second drafts. I woke up Saturday morning and logged on to the Online Writing Workshop to find I had a review of Charged with Folly which told me I began too many sentences with "And," and I should really work on that. I had to laugh. It must have bugged her so much she tunneled into my dreams. And I agree with her. ☺

Families: Technically speaking, I misspoke yesterday in my gratitude post when I said my mom was about the only family I have left. I should have said significant family, because I've got gallons and gallons of cousins out there. Almost all are strangers to me who live in other states (my mom and Aunt Maxine were the rebels who moved from the encrusted enclave in Utah to California). Of the two cousins I was ever close to, I'm only still in touch with one, and even she lives quite a ways away. With her mom, Maxine, gone, we hardly ever see each other.

I also have some nieces and a nephew out there somewhere. All but one of them were older than me (my half-brother was only two years younger than my mother) and their mother didn't approve of my family—we were the poor relations she didn't wish to expose her children to. I saw them semi-frequently when I was a kid, at my brother Jack's insistence, but once he and his wife divorced in my early teens, the kids and wife disappeared from my life (and, I suspect, largely from Jack's). He's passed on now. I have no idea where any of them are. I didn't even know Jack had died until years after the fact.

Families. Messy.

Fortunately, I have good "family of choice," some of whom have been my friends three-quarters of my life.

Vacation: I finally feel like I've gotten my energy back. The first couple of days, even before I'd eaten turkey, I sat down in the chair to read and promptly fell asleep—in the middle of the day, something that's extremely atypical of me. It reaffirmed my decision to take some serious downtime this weekend. I've gotten some things done, but mostly I've perfected the art of sloth.

And I hope you all had the weekends you wished for!

ETA: For those of you who love the Geico Cavemen as much as I do, something more on vacations:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6j9U0qP7H3g

And this one, my favorite in the series. The expression on the actor's face at the end is just priceless.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zZrjr4A-ASQ
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Thanks for the mercy clicks, OWWers. Now my chapter doesn't look so naked when I sign in. And I was just begging for clicks at this point, not prodding people to do crits. The lack of hits had me worried. :-)

(Of course, if you want to do crits, that's swell, too.)


Random quote of the day:

"No truth can make another truth untrue. All knowledge is part of the whole knowledge. A true line, a true color. Once you have seen the larger pattern, you cannot go back to seeing the part as the whole."

—Ursula K. Le Guin, Four Ways to Forgiveness
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I think I've got a chip in one of my contact lenses--the same eye that I managed to gouge last year. This is the second time one of the lenses I got from Dr. Quacky McQuackenstein has chipped on me. He must use some cheap jack crap. I once again find myself returning to this doofus because I could get in right away, but when it comes time for my next regular exam I hope to have a new doctor.

Fortunately, I had my backup glasses with me at work, however they only work for distance. I'm having to sit waaaaay close to the computer screen to see what I'm typing.

Writingness of the day: I decided that it might help me to get my head around chapter 5 by rereading chapters 2-4 so that's what I did. And I think it did help. I feel like I have a better idea of how to attack the chapter. While I was at it, I cleaned up chapter 4 and posted it to the OWW. I didn't have many expectations for this morning, crit-wise, since three of my regulars are NaNo-ing and the holidays are rapidly approaching, but I was somewhat chagrined to find that no one at all had even clicked on the sucker. Woe is me. Hell, if I can survive the dearth of interest in the later chapters of my previous two novels, I guess I'll survive my current chagrination.

What's new in the yard:

I've decided to post some of the pictures I took at sunset on 11/11/06.

Pictures )


Random quote of the day:

"There is no death, only a change of worlds."

—Chief Seattle


Which strikes me as a quote I could use for Charged with Folly.
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My friend is kind of in a holding pattern at the moment. The doctors are trying an aggressive healing regime to try to avoid surgery. He'll be in the hospital at least a week with that, then comes the big decision. If he hasn't improved enough, he'll have to go through major surgery. The prognosis is fairly good--he's been healthy as a horse until this latest crisis--but it's still major surgery and it's still worrying.

So all we can do is wait and hope the healing works. And send good thoughts and prayers his way. I'm trying not to have faith in my fear.

He's like a brother to me. Back in our bohemian days he, his wife, and I all shared a place on Venice Beach. There are no two people on this planet I'm closer to, with the exception of my mother. It's frustrating not being able to do something. But sometimes all you can do is wait.


Random quote of the day:

"Fear is faith that it won't work out."

—Sister Mary Tricky


On a far less important note, Charged with Folly has gotten a pretty decent reception on the OWW. I guess I'm on the right track there. I'm quite pleased.

I love writing novels. I always know where I am when I'm immersed in a big project, even if I don't know where the story is going. It's one of those perverse inconsistencies which are my specialty.
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So I posted chapter 1 of Charged with Folly to the workshop. I hadn't planned on doing it this soon after starting the novel. It's still rough, and I like to get several chapters ahead before beginning. But I found myself itching to get on with it, to kind of force myself onward. Since I released chapter 1 and 2 to my local readers on Friday, and already got some reactions on chapter 1, the itch had even gotten worse. (And [livejournal.com profile] jasperh helped push me over the edge.) It feels like an official beginning to the novel once I've posted it to the 'shop.

Alas, if only later chapters were as easy to get hits on as chapter ones. Such is the nature of the beast and the serialization of novels. Still, the OWW model works for me because what I'm chiefly looking for with first drafts is whether the superstructure is credible (not polished, but credible): characterization, pacing, plotting, worldbuilding, etc. You can get a fairly good idea of that even in serialization.

Although arguably not so much as with a dedicated read through of the whole novel, the serialization at least keeps me thinking about what needs fixing once the draft is finished and allows me to push on without having to go back and obsessively fix everything. I've got a record in my OWW crits of all that and can relax about it. I find having a dedicated read through of the second draft, after I've fixed all the places where I've change course in the plot, the language, and etc., much more beneficial because the first draft is allowed to be inconsistent and messy so I can get the damned thing written. After the second draft I've lost some perspective and can use an objective outside opinion on the whole enchilada.

Which brings up another question: what should I fix for dinner? ☺

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