Gift

Feb. 6th, 2023 02:50 pm
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Random quote of the day:

“Happiness is a gift and the trick is not to expect it, but to delight in it when it comes.

—Douglas McGrath, screenplay for Nicholas Nickleby



Disclaimer: The views expressed in this random quote of the day do not necessarily reflect the views of the poster, her immediate family, Bert and Ernie, Celine Dion, or the Band of the Coldstream Guards. They do, however, sometimes reflect the views of the Cottingley Fairies.

Energy

Jun. 9th, 2021 02:57 pm
pjthompson: quotes (quotei)
Random quote of the day:

“Sometimes a god shows up or a deity or a spirit or even an energy. I think that this doesn’t get any play, but it happens. A craft can come and initiate you. Suddenly, you start seeing books about knitting everywhere and you’re like, “Whoa, I am dreaming about knitting,” and sure, that can be backed up by weaving deities and the lineage of grandmother spirits…Energy, whether it be deity or ancestral energy or even a gift can absolutely move into our life in a shocking and overwhelming way, demanding our attention, demanding that we bring our attention to it and that can be very harrowing.”

—Chiron Armand, The Hermit’s Lamp, Episode 102, December 14, 2019



Disclaimer: The views expressed in this random quote of the day do not necessarily reflect the views of the poster, her immediate family, Desus and Mero, Beyoncé, or the Marine Corps Marching Band. They do, however, sometimes reflect the views of the Cottingley Fairies.

Musings

Feb. 15th, 2020 03:14 pm
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Some ignoramus has posted a video on YouTube showing Frank Sinatra with Nat King Cole actually singing the song, “L.O.V.E.” This is the wonderful and classy Nat King Cole:


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Two hours without WiFi and I was hyperventilating. Fortunately, it was a simple fix, but I may have an addiction problem.
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Tommy. His eyes were actually a soulful gray, not blue. He was in his forties and had done his soldiering during World War I. He became a special police officer during World War II so the younger men could go and fight.



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I found an old keepsake box buried amongst a lot of, well, junk. Some genuine keepsakes inside the box, but also some very old story rejection letters from some of the top magazines, stuff I sent out when I was probably barely out of high school. All form letters, of course. I decided my nostalgia did not stretch to holding on to those any longer. I Kondo'd their a*ses.
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That feeling when something seemingly minor turns dark and deep and symbolic…



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I WILL NOT JOIN FACEBERG, no matter how many paranormal and Outlander live events they host. I WILL NOT become part of the evil empire! I WILL NOT! (Although I did succumb a little bit and joined Instagram. Mostly as a lurker.)
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What to do with all these calendars that people gave me because they didn't know what else to give me? I only need one and that's the one with kitties that I bought myself.
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Sometimes I look at my house and pity the person who, when I die, will have to clean out and dispose of ALL THESE BOOKS. But mostly I pity the books.
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Zero results from the Iowa Caucus are just about right if you consider Iowa's relative importance to reflecting the diversity of the United States. They give such outsized importance to Iowa and New Hampshire. Nothing against either of those states but they're hardly representative of the rest of the country. Yet because somebody gets defeated in either Iowa or New Hampshire often they're eliminated from the race.
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I get nonsense phrases stuck in my head sometimes. When I was doing research for the WIP on Nazi occult matters recently, the nonsense phrase in my cranial echo chamber was, "Otto Rahn on the Autobahn." Research earworms. I have a weird brain. Fortunately, "Otto Rahn on the Autobahn" made me laugh.
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Ray Bradbury famously said about writing, "Jump off a cliff and build your wings on the way down." I'm at that stage of my current WIP where I'm wondering if I've jumped off the wrong goddamned cliff.
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I’ve been reading Last Mountain Dancer by Chuck Kinder on and off for about a month. It’s both an interesting and irritating book so I'm not sure I'd wholeheartedly recommend it. I keep reading because it's about West Virginia where Kinder was born and raised and when he talks about that place, the book sings. Then he goes off into the woods talking about his extramarital affairs and his bad boy ways and it gets boring. (I am so done with middle-aged male angst.)

But yeah, when he talks about what a remarkable and strange place West Virginia is on so many levels it’s worth the read. He goes into many legends, those arising from the tragedies of Matewan and the coal mine bosses, as well as Mothman and other less well-known oddities. It turns out his mother was born and raised in Point Pleasant, WV, home of Mothman, and that her maiden name was Parsons—which will have some meaning to those who follow Hellier.
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I was watching a show on Hadrian's Wall and Vindolanda where they've discovered lots of messages to and from soldiers. In one of them the soldier refers to the tribes they were trying to keep north of the wall as "Britunculi": "nasty little Britains.” My people!
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Hellier has made me way too map conscious. Every time I see something weird about a place I always have to find out where it is in relation to Point Pleasant or Somerset or Hellier or whatever. And it's kind of amazing how much weirdness connects up.

I say this knowing full well how much the human mind longs for linkages and synchronicities.
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Lewis Black: "Trump is good for comedy the way a stroke is good for a nap."
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Patrick Stewart was on Colbert the other week talking about when he was younger he and Ben Kingsley were here in LA doing Shakespeare, along with some other actors of the RSC. He said he and Ben went to Hollywood because they were excited to see the hand- and footprints at the Chinese theater (Sir Pat recently joined the famous hand- and footprints there). But the whole time he's talking I was remembering being a young undergraduate at UCLA where Sir Pat and Sir Ben were doing those Shakespeare performances. During the day when they were not rehearsing or going to Hollywood all of the actors from the RSC would come to classrooms where Shakespeare and theater were being taught, talk to the students, and give impromptu performances. I was lucky enough to be in two such classes. One was Shakespeare, the other on Modern Theatre. I snuck into a third class taught in the theater department and held in an auditorium, but the other two were small English department classrooms. I was lucky enough to sit no more than 6-10 feet away from Sir Pat and Sir Ben while they answered questions and did impromptu performances. Utterly thrilling, even though neither of them was famous at that time. They were just masterful actors doing amazing performances up close and personal. Sir Ben still had his hair back then. Sir Pat did not. But his voice was that rich dark chocolate even back then. PRESENCE, both of them, and I never forgot.
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There's hope, I think, even thought the GOP did not have the guts to do the right thing. During the impeachment trial I called my doctor's office and the answering service picked up. As she took my message I heard the impeachment trial playing in the background. America is listening. We won't forget. I hope they still remember next November.

The gift

Apr. 1st, 2019 12:47 pm
pjthompson: quotes (quotei)

Random quote of the day:

“The purpose of life is to discover your gift. The work of life is to develop it. The meaning of life is to give your gift away.”

—David Viscott, Finding Your Strength in Difficult Times: A Book of Meditations

Disclaimer: The views expressed in this random quote of the day do not necessarily reflect the views of the poster, her immediate family, Laurel and Hardy, Ariana Grande, or the Salvation Army Band. They do, however, sometimes reflect the views of the Cottingley Fairies.

Mirrored from Better Than Dead.

The Gift

Dec. 19th, 2018 12:27 pm
pjthompson: quotes (quotei)

Random quote of the day:

“I didn’t want to become a writer—it just happened. It’s a kind of gift, you know, from the heavens.”

—Haruki Murakami, The Paris Review Interviews, IV

Disclaimer: The views expressed in this random quote of the day do not necessarily reflect the views of the poster, her immediate family, Laurel and Hardy, Ariana Grande, or the Salvation Army Band. They do, however, sometimes reflect the views of the Cottingley Fairies.

Mirrored from Better Than Dead.

The gift

Nov. 17th, 2017 09:37 am
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Random quote of the day:

“Someone I loved once gave me
a box full of darkness.
It took me years to understand
that this, too, was a gift.”

—Mary Oliver, “The Uses of Sorrow,” Thirst



Disclaimer: The views expressed in this random quote of the day do not necessarily reflect the views of the poster, her immediate family, Lucy and Ethel, Justin Bieber, or the Kardashian Klan. They do, however, sometimes reflect the views of the Cottingley Fairies.
pjthompson: quotes (quotei)

Random quote of the day:

“The things we really need come to us only as gifts, and in order to receive them as gifts, we have to be open.”

—Thomas Merton, Conjectures of a Guilty Bystander

Disclaimer: The views expressed in this random quote of the day do not necessarily reflect the views of the poster, her immediate family, Lucy and Ethel, Justin Bieber, or the Kardashian Klan. They do, however, sometimes reflect the views of the Cottingley Fairies.

Mirrored from Better Than Dead.

Rescue me

May. 26th, 2011 08:26 am
pjthompson: quotes (quotei)

Random quote of the day:

 

“The gift you carry for others is not an attempt to save the world but to fully belong to it. It’s not possible to save the world by trying to save it. You need to find what is genuinely yours to offer the world before you can make it a better place. Discovering your unique gift to bring to your community is your greatest opportunity and challenge. The offering of that gift—your true self—is the most you can do to love and serve the world. And it is all the world needs.”

—Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Disclaimer:  The views expressed in this random quote of the day do not necessarily reflect the views of the poster, her immediate family, Siegfried and Roy, Leonard Maltin, or the Mormon Tabernacle Choir. They do, however, sometimes reflect the views of the Cottingley Fairies.

Mirrored from Better Than Dead.

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Things that made me happy: getting books in the mail


I love getting books under any circumstance, but when I get them in the mail it feels like I'm getting a present! Sometimes literally, but even if I've bought them myself.

Yesterday afternoon I got the last two books in my Christmas gift certificate orgy. People know I like getting book certificates so they tend to give them to me. Which makes me very happy. I got $80 worth this year between Barnes and Noble and Amazon, and the book glut commenced. I tend to spend every last penny, plus some of my own money. Which means I often buy used books as well as expensive or more esoteric books I might not necessarily buy otherwise. I think I did really well for myself this year.

(Ha! Jimmy Durante singing "Make Someone Happy" just followed Coldplay on iTunes.)

This year's book haul. )
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I was having a conversation this morning with a friend and loyal beta reader in conjunction with this quote of the day:

"In order to swim one takes off all one's clothes. In order to aspire to the truth one must undress in a far more inward sense, divest oneself of all one's inward clothes—of thoughts, conceptions, selfishness—before one is sufficiently naked."

—Søren Kierkegaard

He asked, "I wonder how long it takes to strip down completely?"

I said, "I don't think it's a process that ever ends. I think there's always another layer. The onion is never peeled completely."

He laughed. "I guess that's why I'm still in therapy."

"I can't afford therapy anymore so I do it vicariously through my characters."

Which, of course, was mostly just a smart alecky thing to say. I'm not really doing some extended Mary Sueism in my fiction. My characters ≠ me. Bits of me are probably in most of them, but if you add up all the bits they don't all come from some hidden corner of my psyche. They're more an amalgam of people I've encountered, myself, my friends—and something else that I can't quite explain which comes from Some Other Place. I don't label what this place might be—my subconscious, the land of Booga-Booga, whatever. It's just Other and I have a superstitious feeling it's best not to think about it too hard.

On the Other hand, putting my characters through sh*t does help me think about the sh*t in my own life and work on it. Doesn't make any of my flaws go away, doesn't "cure" me of neurosis, but such things aren't possible, anyway. The most any therapy can do, whether it's lit therapy or the couch variety, is give you coping skills to work around those neuroses.

Except sometimes, of course, when it doesn't help you work around those neuroses. Backsliding is common, whether it's in religious conversion, coping strategies, or addiction. It really is just one day at a time.

And no, not everyone in California is in therapy. Just every Other person. :-)

Other news of the day: My first beta reaction to chapter one of Charged With Folly was good, but my friend wanted to know how I got such a "weird" idea. I told him that I was just falling asleep late one night when the central image popped into my head and I had to pop out of bed to write it down. "It was a gift," I explained. "You don't argue with gifts, you just go with them."
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Gift

A day so happy.
Fog lifted early, I worked in the garden.
Hummingbirds were stopping over honeysuckle flowers.
There was no thing on earth I wanted to possess.
I knew no one worth my envying him.
Whatever evil I had suffered, I forgot.
To think that once I was the same man did not embarrass me.
In my body I felt no pain.
When straightening up, I saw the blue sea and sails.

—Czeslaw Milosz

Rainy Day

Dec. 5th, 2004 12:16 pm
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Yeah—real cold for California. Here at the beach it's been consistently in the low 40s (Fahrenheit) at night for a couple of weeks now, 60s during the day. Ten or twenty degrees colder inland. I realize that's practically balmy if you're a resident of, say, Buffalo. But I don't live there. I live here—and it's damned cold for California.

And today it's raining. I usually love the rain. Usually it fills me with energy, gets my creative juices flowing. I know that's the opposite of most folks, but I've long ago accepted my contrariness. So.

Today is not a particularly high energy day for me. It's my dad's birthday. He's been dead eleven years now and today I miss him.

It's usually easier to have pure emotions for dead people—their inconvenient mortal selves aren't hanging around to remind you of all those things that got on your nerves, the past hurts inflicted on both sides, the complicated layers of emotions. When they're dead it's just the essence of what they were that walks the corridors of your heart, all the dross cleansed away, all the extenuating circumstances no longer relevant. You can love them, or hate them, without mitigation.

But I can truly say that even when my dad was alive, the emotions I had for him had a kind of purity. I loved him, he loved me—unconditionally. Beginning and end of story. Considering that many people go their whole lives not having that kind of relationship, I consider him a gift. And he continues to be a gift even after death. He was my Real Dad, although he contributed no DNA to making me.

I loved my read dad, too, the biological one—but way too many complications there, even after his death. Perhaps we'll be able to patch it up on the Other Side—if there is Another Side. Usually it's easier to think of the Other Side when I think about my dad, my Real Dad. Other times, I'm not so sure.

What Does It Mean

It does not know it glitters
It does not know it flies
It does not know it is this not that.

And, more and more often, agape,
with my Gauloise dying out,
Over a glass of red wine,
I muse on the meaning of being this not that.

Just as long ago, when I was twenty,
But then there was a hope I would be everything,
Perhaps even a butterfly or a thrush, by magic.
Now I see dusty district roads
And a town where the postmaster gets drunk every day
Melancholy with remaining identical to himself.

If only the stars contained me.
If only everything kept happening in such a way
That the so-called world opposed the so-called flesh.
Were I at least not contradictory. Alas.

—Czeslaw Milosz

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